Ride by Emily Williamson Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I thought I could escape everything with wealth
Drinking hard, smoking hard, out all night
Smiling at you just because I want you gone
Why are you asking me how I'm dealin with death for ?
Stop asking me how I'm doing, I'm not doing
I stopped living the day they did the same thing
Had a dream where we took a family picture Woke up
And cried, they were gone, so I'm writing down this letter
They left and my world went thicker, I figured
They were everything that held me together
And I'd be dead already if it wasn't for my brothers
I saw you trying to shoulder-slap me, dont bother
I heard you talking at the funerals but didn't listen
Tryin' to figure out if it was worth it being a christian
I read the books and asked myself 'am I believing ?"
If we all end up dying, is it worth it to be livin' ?
I was a queen on a throne but I lost my crown
Like the governor of a ghost town
Tried swimming through death but I drowned
Wreslting to survive but life choked me down
[Chorus]
It's been the longest ride
Without you by my side
Maybe tonight's the night
I finally say goodbye
It's been the longest ride
Even with you by my side
And I'm crying tonight
Cause you didn't say goodbye
[Verse 2]
I'm looking for a meaning, have you seen it ?
I hope they can see me, I ain't no John Cena
I hope they can see me, crying my heart out on a stupid beat
And if they can see me, death won I've been defeated
But I keep on hanging on, look mommy, I'm super strong !
And I'm the one with the sniper when the guns are drawn
I don't need you making me believe you backed me up
I gave you a whole opportunity and you gave back a stub
No you're not sorry, I can hear it in your voice
I'm still grieving, I don't have much of a choice
If you're looking for a meaning, I keep it in a vault
Maybe they're amongst the stars, and it was my own fault
Forgivin' all of you people because that's how I was raised
But when I see all the bullshit you've pulled I'm amazed
Your bullshit made me grow up but trust me lie never pays
I'm sorry, dissing you on track was one of the easy ways
I have new friends telling me they'll catch me if I fall
I never told them it's been years I lost my soul
Ain't no one that helped me get up I don't recall
It don't change shit when you tell me to stand tall
And now I'm here walking down the street
I'm the rich white kid that lost everything
And I hoped you'd hold me in your wings
Fuck I fell and realized life hangs on a string
Funny how life changes with a phone call
No brick no concrete but death is a huge wall
[Chorus]
It's been the longest ride
Without you by my side
Maybe tonight's the night
I finally say goodbye
It's been the longest ride
Even with you by my side
And I'm crying tonight
Cause you didn't say goodbye
[Verse 3]
I miss you all so much you don't know
I never drove cause I wanted you to teach me how to do so
You left too soon so I keep it on the low
Rapping about an impala I'll never get to show
The best don't leave first but they leave unfairly
Oh I see, life is beautiful but losing is pricey
I remember that one day you were by my side
And destiny calls, the next day you left real quick
If that's how I'm supposed to live
Then guess what, damn I fucking quit
I thought I could escape everything with wealth
Drinking hard, smoking hard, out all night
Smiling at you just because I want you gone
Why are you asking me how I'm dealin with death for ?
Stop asking me how I'm doing, I'm not doing
I stopped living the day they did the same thing
Had a dream where we took a family picture Woke up
And cried, they were gone, so I'm writing down this letter
They left and my world went thicker, I figured
They were everything that held me together
And I'd be dead already if it wasn't for my brothers
I saw you trying to shoulder-slap me, dont bother
I heard you talking at the funerals but didn't listen
Tryin' to figure out if it was worth it being a christian
I read the books and asked myself 'am I believing ?"
If we all end up dying, is it worth it to be livin' ?
I was a queen on a throne but I lost my crown
Like the governor of a ghost town
Tried swimming through death but I drowned
Wreslting to survive but life choked me down
[Chorus]
It's been the longest ride
Without you by my side
Maybe tonight's the night
I finally say goodbye
It's been the longest ride
Even with you by my side
And I'm crying tonight
Cause you didn't say goodbye
[Verse 2]
I'm looking for a meaning, have you seen it ?
I hope they can see me, I ain't no John Cena
I hope they can see me, crying my heart out on a stupid beat
And if they can see me, death won I've been defeated
But I keep on hanging on, look mommy, I'm super strong !
And I'm the one with the sniper when the guns are drawn
I don't need you making me believe you backed me up
I gave you a whole opportunity and you gave back a stub
No you're not sorry, I can hear it in your voice
I'm still grieving, I don't have much of a choice
If you're looking for a meaning, I keep it in a vault
Maybe they're amongst the stars, and it was my own fault
Forgivin' all of you people because that's how I was raised
But when I see all the bullshit you've pulled I'm amazed
Your bullshit made me grow up but trust me lie never pays
I'm sorry, dissing you on track was one of the easy ways
I have new friends telling me they'll catch me if I fall
I never told them it's been years I lost my soul
Ain't no one that helped me get up I don't recall
It don't change shit when you tell me to stand tall
And now I'm here walking down the street
I'm the rich white kid that lost everything
And I hoped you'd hold me in your wings
Fuck I fell and realized life hangs on a string
Funny how life changes with a phone call
No brick no concrete but death is a huge wall
[Chorus]
It's been the longest ride
Without you by my side
Maybe tonight's the night
I finally say goodbye
It's been the longest ride
Even with you by my side
And I'm crying tonight
Cause you didn't say goodbye
[Verse 3]
I miss you all so much you don't know
I never drove cause I wanted you to teach me how to do so
You left too soon so I keep it on the low
Rapping about an impala I'll never get to show
The best don't leave first but they leave unfairly
Oh I see, life is beautiful but losing is pricey
I remember that one day you were by my side
And destiny calls, the next day you left real quick
If that's how I'm supposed to live
Then guess what, damn I fucking quit