Go Away by Emily Lagleva Lyrics

The clock,
Hits 3 am.
I wake up,
I´m wet again.
This is becoming,
A daily routine.
Laying in bed,
Soaking wet,
The flashbacks start.
He´s the reason this happens.
Regression sucks,
Why can't I have a normal,
Coping mechanism.
Him.
He´s always here,
Even when I sleep,
He never goes.
He´s ruined everything,
I wake up Wet daily.
Regressed into a little kid,
The mind Is interesting.
It thinks To be safe,
I need to Be a toddler,
When I sleep.
I´m done.
I wish he would,
Just give Me peace.
Please.
I´m done,
Going through panic,
At random times,
He ruins me.
He really is,
Always there.
The mind,
Really doesn't,
Forget…
He´s touching me,
But I´m alone.
He sticking fingers,
Up me,
But I´m alone.
Pain will never
Go away.
No one understands.
I wish everything,
Would stop.
5,4,3,2,1
¨You´re safe now¨.
That small voice,
Does a lot.
He went Away.
I get up to shower,
Change the sheets.
¨What the hell,
What´s wrong with you?¨
Dad´s screaming,
He´s mad,
Because I was bad,
and wet the Bad again.
Maybe if I had stayed dry,
Dad might be happy.
Dad leaves,
And abuser comes back.
The hands.
They grab harder.
It going in me,
Again.
It´s so hard.
I hate myself.
Everything is,
My fault.
Every night,
I cry myself,
To sleep.
Hoping he´ll,
Go away