Brand New by Emersions Lyrics

I never thought that I would become the monster in the mirror
Reflecting the things i've done, I can't stand to look at my myself
I tried to run away from this, a thousand miles I still regret
I had no care for you, I only cared for myself
Pure selfishness was all that I felt
Oh what a mess i've made
It's days like this when I have regret; regret the way I treated you
How could I be so cruel, how could I stop so low?
And maybe it's a good thing now, that I see what i've done
And maybe a change; a change will surely come
How can I deserve happiness if I never gave anyone happiness?
How could I deserve you if i've never deserved you at all?
How can I find it easier, just to hate this place
Suppress the feelings and hide my face
Tell myself i'm numb and I only feel anger
But i'm tired , i'm done pointing the finger
Fueled by insecurities, how can I make a move?
I'm still frozen here alone, but with my ambitions I can make it back home
Now i'm brand new, through all I do. I am brand new