My Story by Elijah Baer (Myself) Lyrics
I don’t have audio or anything yet because I am just not really confident about myself or my music yet. Don’t worry about taking it easy or anything. I’m 15 years old, this is my story
I’m afaid to love because I only get hurt in the end
And when I give it another go I don’t know where to begin
I care but never get cared for in return
And when I get close to someone I just end up getting burned
I fear my own dad cause he hit me in the past and the marks and the scars on my body just give me flashbacks
I’ve tried a lot of things, I’ve smoked and I’ve drank to get rid of the pain but it appears everything remains the same
It wasn’t a problem but now I can’t even stop
And all these bottled up emotions make me feel like I’m about to pop
I laugh it off keeping the hurt inside, but that’s all over I’m done trying to hide
I do stupid shit just for attention, because I need distractions from the barriers in my life
I’ve done some horrible things, nearly set my sisters school on fire, and all the pain inside grew higher and higher
To think sometimes, I walk outside late at night to release some of the pain I’ve been keeping inside
I really hate my dad he only cares for himself no matter how many times I’ve begged for his help
I’m tired of being lied to by the closest ones I love, it’s like love is something they never even heard of
And being accused of rape by the girl I used to love, ill admit that shit was real tough
I can say that’s the end but I don’t live life with no regrets
But there are some things that I’d love to forget
I hate myself for not making the right decisions
But that’s the past and now I can’t take it back
Now here’s the main course of what I’m feeling inside and what I’ve let hide and tried to keep out of sight
But now it’s time to let go, let go of all the pain and all these feelings that are inside locked up in these chains and all this shit I can’t get out of my brain
I hope you’ll stay with me till the end because I am at the final battle
And you know I’m gonna win
Can’t see my face, can’t read my mind
If you aren’t trying to help me don’t waste my time
I’m aiming up, aiming straight for the glory
Don’t judge me from my outside
You don’t know my story
I’m afaid to love because I only get hurt in the end
And when I give it another go I don’t know where to begin
I care but never get cared for in return
And when I get close to someone I just end up getting burned
I fear my own dad cause he hit me in the past and the marks and the scars on my body just give me flashbacks
I’ve tried a lot of things, I’ve smoked and I’ve drank to get rid of the pain but it appears everything remains the same
It wasn’t a problem but now I can’t even stop
And all these bottled up emotions make me feel like I’m about to pop
I laugh it off keeping the hurt inside, but that’s all over I’m done trying to hide
I do stupid shit just for attention, because I need distractions from the barriers in my life
I’ve done some horrible things, nearly set my sisters school on fire, and all the pain inside grew higher and higher
To think sometimes, I walk outside late at night to release some of the pain I’ve been keeping inside
I really hate my dad he only cares for himself no matter how many times I’ve begged for his help
I’m tired of being lied to by the closest ones I love, it’s like love is something they never even heard of
And being accused of rape by the girl I used to love, ill admit that shit was real tough
I can say that’s the end but I don’t live life with no regrets
But there are some things that I’d love to forget
I hate myself for not making the right decisions
But that’s the past and now I can’t take it back
Now here’s the main course of what I’m feeling inside and what I’ve let hide and tried to keep out of sight
But now it’s time to let go, let go of all the pain and all these feelings that are inside locked up in these chains and all this shit I can’t get out of my brain
I hope you’ll stay with me till the end because I am at the final battle
And you know I’m gonna win
Can’t see my face, can’t read my mind
If you aren’t trying to help me don’t waste my time
I’m aiming up, aiming straight for the glory
Don’t judge me from my outside
You don’t know my story