Recovery. The.Truth Pt. 2 by El Escobario Lyrics
I told you how it feels to be fighting for your life
In front of a judge but she didn’t do me right
I didn’t go to prison but I didn’t win the fight
But I think I did this day then I’m in my bed tonight
Probation ain’t that bad but it really fucked my life
And to make it even worse ya my girl she turned out trife
Been through a lot of shit in the years I’ve been alive
I got sent away to rehab ya it really shined a light
I used to pop pills just to make me feel alright
Ya the Xanax made my family straight forget what I was like
I didn’t give a fuck I almost saw the other side
Ya addiction and depression really took me for a ride
I was breathing I was beating but I still wasn’t alive
My brain was a zombie cuz the drugs I had inside
Had to drop out of college still pretending shit was fine
Ya 18 years old but I’m missing out on life
House arrest was normal but I worked a 9 to 5
But I couldn’t tell nobody so I put it in a mic
They knew me a Lil Pablo always toting on the pipe
Ya my name was all I had I couldn’t let them see inside
I’m still little Pablo and I still got my pipe
But I’m back and I’m better now I’m doing things right
The image in my head how I almost took my life
I wasn’t even trying but the Xannies fucked my mind
I need another one and another and another
I remember breaking down and just crying to my mother
My family became distant ya we barely saw each other
And when I was away ya I really missed my brother
With everybody else I put on a fucking cover
This one girl got me deep but she didn’t want a lover
She cut me open wide but my heart’s not made of rubber
She smashed it on the ground ya she made it fucking rupture
My past is my past that shit can’t be restructured
The only thing now is to focus and recover
But how can I recover when I can’t forget my past
No matter what I do it still bites me in the ass
No matter how I try, to cover up my tracks
Keep my name up out your mouth before I get up on your ass
Ya 13 years old when I started selling pack
So close to being free little Pablos almost back yeah, aye
In front of a judge but she didn’t do me right
I didn’t go to prison but I didn’t win the fight
But I think I did this day then I’m in my bed tonight
Probation ain’t that bad but it really fucked my life
And to make it even worse ya my girl she turned out trife
Been through a lot of shit in the years I’ve been alive
I got sent away to rehab ya it really shined a light
I used to pop pills just to make me feel alright
Ya the Xanax made my family straight forget what I was like
I didn’t give a fuck I almost saw the other side
Ya addiction and depression really took me for a ride
I was breathing I was beating but I still wasn’t alive
My brain was a zombie cuz the drugs I had inside
Had to drop out of college still pretending shit was fine
Ya 18 years old but I’m missing out on life
House arrest was normal but I worked a 9 to 5
But I couldn’t tell nobody so I put it in a mic
They knew me a Lil Pablo always toting on the pipe
Ya my name was all I had I couldn’t let them see inside
I’m still little Pablo and I still got my pipe
But I’m back and I’m better now I’m doing things right
The image in my head how I almost took my life
I wasn’t even trying but the Xannies fucked my mind
I need another one and another and another
I remember breaking down and just crying to my mother
My family became distant ya we barely saw each other
And when I was away ya I really missed my brother
With everybody else I put on a fucking cover
This one girl got me deep but she didn’t want a lover
She cut me open wide but my heart’s not made of rubber
She smashed it on the ground ya she made it fucking rupture
My past is my past that shit can’t be restructured
The only thing now is to focus and recover
But how can I recover when I can’t forget my past
No matter what I do it still bites me in the ass
No matter how I try, to cover up my tracks
Keep my name up out your mouth before I get up on your ass
Ya 13 years old when I started selling pack
So close to being free little Pablos almost back yeah, aye