INTERNAL STRUGGLE by EXTINCT Lyrics

Everybody asking when its my time
My time to get back on the grind
When it is my time to shine
I tell em i dont know
I dont really know
When ill be back on my feet
When ill get back up
And kick it in the street
With my brothers
With my homies
Man im feeling kinda lonely
All the way up here
Im living on my own
With nothing but fear
Feeling kinda crap
Needa nap
Theres no time for that
Im chilling with the laptop in my lap
Tryna write a rap

But somehow (what)
I can't do that
I just sit alone (yep)
Waiting on my snap
Won't you talk to me (nope)
Want some company
Another day at home (hmm)
I guess with nobody (uh huh)
This is not
What i wanted at all
Living out of home
I was havin a ball
Now i dont even gеt calls
Or go out to the mall
My life is kinda sad
But i guess i should bе glad

I dont
Know what to do now
I guess i should be proud
That ive made it
This far
Even tho my efforts sub par
Im waiting
For the day
That i can say i am okay
I know that i have made mistakes
But im gonna pull through today

I know that i have stuffed up
And ive made some mistakes
But i can tell you right now
That for months i haven't felt great
Its slowly creepin up behind me
Man its almost a year
Since i had some of those gold tops
That filled my body with fear
Oh shit oh dear
I think im bugging out
Not from the drugs
Im freaking now
My heart is pumping
Jumping out
Of my chest
I can't chill now
This isnt how
I want to be
To live my life
And afraid to see
The dark side of
Reality
Living my life
On the edge of my seat
Its not ideal
For me to live this way
I can't even sleep
Through a single day
Thats why
I can't let go of the past
Hold onto it with a grasp
When everthing was better
And thats all i can say