Odious Night by E 605 Lyrics

Swimming in the emptiness
Drowning in self-pity's zest
Think in circles on and on
I mistreat myself
Too many questions
No reply's
This chains in my head are harder and colder and stronger than me
In this odious night
I don't feel for my wish to die and I can't deny
That it is my own fault but on some days I can't
Playing with a razor blade
And again I hesitate
Fear and pain with agony
Are a mighty force
Too many questions
No reply's
This chains in my head are harder and stronger and colder than me
In this odious night
I don't feel for my wish to die and I can't deny
I'm too weak to fight the pain
Because I'm occupied
With suffering and with punishing myself this time
Never again, I think, the sun will shine for me
The sun will shine for me
I will not pick up the phone
I want to say here alone
I will not open the door
No one can help me no more
I will not pick up the phone
I want to say here alone
I will not open the door
No one can help me no
No one can help me no more