You Will Never Know by Deathpile Lyrics

I HAVE KEPT THIS LOCKED AWAY
I HAVE LOCKED IN ALL I KNOW
ALL I'VE SEEN
ALL I'VE DONE IS LOCKED INSIDE MY HEAD
THIS IS MY WORLD
MY WORLD INSIDE MY BRAIN
MY WORLD YOU WILL NEVER KNOW

THERE ARE SO MANY QUESTIONS
HOW DID I GET THEM IN MY TRUCK?
WHAT DID I SAY?
WHERE DID WE GO?
DID I FUCK THEM BEFORE THEY KNEW THEY WERE GOING TO DIE?
OR DID THEY BEG ME TO SPARE THEM
WHILE GAGGING ON MY COCK?
WERE THERE DESPERATE TEARS
MIXED WITH MY CUM ON THEIR FACE?
OR WAS IT BLOOD?
WERE THEIR FACES PALE WITH FEAR?
WERE THEIR BEADY GLAZED WHORE EYES SEEING THAT THIS WAS THE END?
WERE THEIR DRUG-RUINED BODIES
TREMBLING BENEATH MY FINGERS?
DID I TORTURE THEM?
DID I BEAT THEM?
DID I RAPE THEM MORE THAN ONCE?
DID I CUM FROM JUST CHOKING THEM?
OR DID I HAVE MY COCK IN THEM
AT THE MOMENT OF DEATH?
DID I FUCK THEIR DEAD BODIES?
WHERE DID I DUMP THEM?
WAS IT A RITUAL
OR WAS IT JUST TAKING OUT THE TRASH?
HOW LONG DID I STAY WITH THEM WHEN IT WAS OVER?
DID I VISIT THEM LATER?
DO I FEEL REMORSE?
DO I FEEL PROUD?
DO I FEEL AT ALL?

YOU WILL NEVER KNOW
AND I WILL NEVER TELL