Life by Deangelo Lyrics
(Verse)
Why do I feel so alone
Maybe it’s cuz I’m in my room at home
Recording in my zone
With a bunch of shit that’s happening
Where did I go wrong
And this did not just just start
Its been like this for so long
Everyone says they’re original
But all I see is clones
Fuck is going on
I’ve worked for so much
But now most of it is gone
They say brush it off
But I ain't even got a comb
If quitting didn’t have a consequence
Id give away the throne
But I know life is big
So I know that I won't
My brains telling me stop
But my hearts telling me go
I wish I could be me
But slowly I have grown
And realized that I
Have to give the people what they want
Im not in it for the money
Im not in it for the fame
I think I do it so
Somehow I can let out all the pain
Even letting it out on a track
Is such a fucking strain
But imagine all the feeling
That I would have to contain
Im tryna get my thoughts straight
Tryna get them arranged
My minds been working overtime
I ain't even got a brain
It goes straight to my heart
And I ain't even playing
I feel like people look at me
And say what a fucking shame
He is such a lame
Ain't even got a name
I felt like I was in the sky
Like I was flying a plane
Now I feel im at the bottom
Like my name is on a grave
And please don’t say you feel me
Cause you can't fucking relate
Its just a bunch of hate
So applaud to you
To everyone of my haters
Ya’ll really came with the hatred
Ya’ll wanna hear more of my cheating ex
Well she’s nameless
And fuck B
He knew and he didn’t fucking say shit
I poured my heart for you
Turns out all that time was wasted
People say itll pass
Please be patient
But its been 14 years
And im still fucking waiting
And don’t give me advice
If you can't take it yourself
Im just asking you to listen
Im not asking for your help
Im a trophy but
Even the best ones get put up on the shelf
Im doing what I love
But fuck it give me the wealth
And please don’t call me crazy
You do not know what I’ve felt
Maybe I need discipline
Smack me with a belt
I know I need some help
But im fine by myself
Cause if you’re smart
You can play with the type of cards that you’re dealt
People think im doing good
They think im doing well
I didn’t even get to the top
And I already fell
Conversations with old friends
They’ll start to ring a bell
When they die and you’re praying
To god that theyre not in hell
And R.I.P
Its been like this since the beginning
Dealing with school
Depression, women
The expectations
I have to live up to with my writtens
Peer pressure, drugs
Alcohol, Decisions
Doing things you wanna do
Even when you ain't got permission
Following your dreams
Like your on a fucking mission
There’s so many points of view
In these positions
But I bet my dead friends are saying
Be happy you’re living
Another thing I’ve learned
Is that everyone’s a hater
Me, your mom
Your dad, your neighbor
Your brother, your sister
Your teacher, the mayor
Everyone at the dinner table
Including the waiters
Cause we all think were the best
And the odds are in out favor
You got drunk off of the fame
But im tryna savor the flavor
I wish life was easy
As writing on a paper
So when we make a mistake
We just pull out an eraser
I hate to fucking vent to ya’ll
I don’t do it on purpose
Cause I honestly don’t even fucking thin its
Really fucking worth it
I let out all the feelings
Then I don’t even learn shit
Karmas a bitch
I probably just deserve this
I fucked up in the past
I probably just earned this
Im thinking of all the things
I did it makes me nervous
My heart was in pain
You did just more that hurt it
I became a different kid
Now look at me im cursing
What’s wrong with me
Im asking all the nurses
I probably just overdosed
To become a better person
Life was starting to look good
Then it just turned quick
I ain't even finished
I ain't scratched the surface
Why do I feel so alone
Maybe it’s cuz I’m in my room at home
Recording in my zone
With a bunch of shit that’s happening
Where did I go wrong
And this did not just just start
Its been like this for so long
Everyone says they’re original
But all I see is clones
Fuck is going on
I’ve worked for so much
But now most of it is gone
They say brush it off
But I ain't even got a comb
If quitting didn’t have a consequence
Id give away the throne
But I know life is big
So I know that I won't
My brains telling me stop
But my hearts telling me go
I wish I could be me
But slowly I have grown
And realized that I
Have to give the people what they want
Im not in it for the money
Im not in it for the fame
I think I do it so
Somehow I can let out all the pain
Even letting it out on a track
Is such a fucking strain
But imagine all the feeling
That I would have to contain
Im tryna get my thoughts straight
Tryna get them arranged
My minds been working overtime
I ain't even got a brain
It goes straight to my heart
And I ain't even playing
I feel like people look at me
And say what a fucking shame
He is such a lame
Ain't even got a name
I felt like I was in the sky
Like I was flying a plane
Now I feel im at the bottom
Like my name is on a grave
And please don’t say you feel me
Cause you can't fucking relate
Its just a bunch of hate
So applaud to you
To everyone of my haters
Ya’ll really came with the hatred
Ya’ll wanna hear more of my cheating ex
Well she’s nameless
And fuck B
He knew and he didn’t fucking say shit
I poured my heart for you
Turns out all that time was wasted
People say itll pass
Please be patient
But its been 14 years
And im still fucking waiting
And don’t give me advice
If you can't take it yourself
Im just asking you to listen
Im not asking for your help
Im a trophy but
Even the best ones get put up on the shelf
Im doing what I love
But fuck it give me the wealth
And please don’t call me crazy
You do not know what I’ve felt
Maybe I need discipline
Smack me with a belt
I know I need some help
But im fine by myself
Cause if you’re smart
You can play with the type of cards that you’re dealt
People think im doing good
They think im doing well
I didn’t even get to the top
And I already fell
Conversations with old friends
They’ll start to ring a bell
When they die and you’re praying
To god that theyre not in hell
And R.I.P
Its been like this since the beginning
Dealing with school
Depression, women
The expectations
I have to live up to with my writtens
Peer pressure, drugs
Alcohol, Decisions
Doing things you wanna do
Even when you ain't got permission
Following your dreams
Like your on a fucking mission
There’s so many points of view
In these positions
But I bet my dead friends are saying
Be happy you’re living
Another thing I’ve learned
Is that everyone’s a hater
Me, your mom
Your dad, your neighbor
Your brother, your sister
Your teacher, the mayor
Everyone at the dinner table
Including the waiters
Cause we all think were the best
And the odds are in out favor
You got drunk off of the fame
But im tryna savor the flavor
I wish life was easy
As writing on a paper
So when we make a mistake
We just pull out an eraser
I hate to fucking vent to ya’ll
I don’t do it on purpose
Cause I honestly don’t even fucking thin its
Really fucking worth it
I let out all the feelings
Then I don’t even learn shit
Karmas a bitch
I probably just deserve this
I fucked up in the past
I probably just earned this
Im thinking of all the things
I did it makes me nervous
My heart was in pain
You did just more that hurt it
I became a different kid
Now look at me im cursing
What’s wrong with me
Im asking all the nurses
I probably just overdosed
To become a better person
Life was starting to look good
Then it just turned quick
I ain't even finished
I ain't scratched the surface