Dead Weight by Codex Obscura Lyrics

I wish that I had your eyes
So I could see what you see in me
I wish that I could be present at all times
Flickering in and out of my presence of mind
It would be nice I had another chance
Starting over at square one
A little less fucked this time
I'm sick of this shit
I'm sick of making excuses for myself
I want to be there for you
I just want you to know that I love you

Over and over repeating in my head
The frustration I sense in you
When I can't wake up
When I can't take a shower
Whеn I just can't smile
When I can't take carе of myself
Fuck

Why in the fuck would I ever want to burden someone else
With the shit that I have in my head?
Why do people I don't even know
Want to listen to the songs that I make about being alone?
Why should anyone fucking support me?
Why would anyone give a shit about me?
Me?
Me?
The view from here is a brick fucking wall
I keep smashing myself against it
My knuckles bleed and deform
The view outside is a black hole
I continue to push but I never get any further

My malnourished frame continues to wither
As time slips through my fingers
And I continue to achieve nothing that I had planned
Soon enough i will be nothing but another statistic

Bleed

I wish that I had your eyes
So I could see what you see in me
When I sleep 14 hours a week
When I forget to eat
When I can't just fake smile
When I fucking give up