Happenstance by Cicala Lyrics

I remember getting in my car going to pick you up
Wondering if you're on heroin or something else that I would never touch
Still don't even drink

I had a panic attack and I cried on the way
Just like the time I laid in bed all day when my aunt died
But I had to wipe my tears
'Cause I had to have a clear mind

And I still drive by your old house but only when it's happenstance
Dropping off a friend or forgetting my sense of direction
Heading downtown to the place where there's friction in my head
I hate crowds and familiar places

I find it hard to talk to people that I think are cute
But I can sit on a stage and scream in front of you
Setting expectations that I can't make myself

And wish I read more books than I do
And I wish I had more energy like a few years ago
Back when I could feel like I could do anything just with you
I know that you're awake somehow
And I know, I know that you're awake somehow

I know that you're awake somehow
And I know, I know that you're awake somehow

I know that you're awake right now
And I know, I know that you're awake somehow

I know that you're awake somehow
And I know, I know that you're awake
Somehow