Untitled Letter by Christian Allain Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Now that I’m here looking down, I wish that I wasn’t so proud
It is so quiet up here
Shoulda spent more time with family and building relationships
Honestly I disappeared
From everyone I thought that wronged me in life
No matter the matter I had to be right
The chip on my shoulder was too big to bite
Fought for a love that I pushed to the side
Can’t control what you lose, like the new becomes old
But you can get a grip when you’re losing control
Heavy’s the head with a crown on your soul
Sometimеs the weight isn’t worth it in gold
I wish that I thanked my dad what hе did for me
He said he’s proud, can’t explain what that meant to me
I should have opened up more to them mentally
And less time depending on things that would limit me
I need to talk to somebody, specifically
Mom, I love you the most- I hope that you know
You raised me to grow, question the world, and always have hope
You raised me alone the first two years
Dave didn’t show, he hasn’t appeared
I’m 20 years old, he’s still not here
But I’m okay, but I’m okay, yeah
Cause time flies by, yeah
Matter of fact its stolen
I can’t turn back, this is what I’ve chosen
I realized that we're all broken
I wish that I could fix my mistakes
[Verse 2]
And to my grandparents- you are the best of us
You’re always giving way more than the rest of us
Sorry that this didn’t go as expected
Just know that you taught me the most and I cherished each day
Wish that we never had moved far away
I miss the time when you’d take me to school every day
I’d ride back with Papa
I’d stay after meetings were late
Could never repay you
I’m sorry that I barely called
I’m afraid to show you the real me
I’m worried that you’d be ashamed
Lost the integrity that you ingrained in me
Life kinda strangled me
I lost my way, know its too late
But if you hear me, you were the light to my path every day
You all created the best memories that I’ve ever had in my brain
Mikayla, my beautiful wife- I’m sorry I know that this comes as surprise
I told you I’d always be there through the night
But I didn’t know that I’d run out of time
Please do not cry, just go on with your life
You have always been the strongest inside
I know that we never really found perfect
But you’re more than perfect to me through my eyes
I know thats its hard but don’t cry that I’m gone
I’ve finally found peace in this life all along
Lily and Dean, go and follow your dreams
You can achieve anything that you want
Promise me that you will take care of mom
Dad’s getting older, he can’t do it all
Wish I could be there to watch you all grow
If you ever miss me then just play this… song
Now that I’m here looking down, I wish that I wasn’t so proud
It is so quiet up here
Shoulda spent more time with family and building relationships
Honestly I disappeared
From everyone I thought that wronged me in life
No matter the matter I had to be right
The chip on my shoulder was too big to bite
Fought for a love that I pushed to the side
Can’t control what you lose, like the new becomes old
But you can get a grip when you’re losing control
Heavy’s the head with a crown on your soul
Sometimеs the weight isn’t worth it in gold
I wish that I thanked my dad what hе did for me
He said he’s proud, can’t explain what that meant to me
I should have opened up more to them mentally
And less time depending on things that would limit me
I need to talk to somebody, specifically
Mom, I love you the most- I hope that you know
You raised me to grow, question the world, and always have hope
You raised me alone the first two years
Dave didn’t show, he hasn’t appeared
I’m 20 years old, he’s still not here
But I’m okay, but I’m okay, yeah
Cause time flies by, yeah
Matter of fact its stolen
I can’t turn back, this is what I’ve chosen
I realized that we're all broken
I wish that I could fix my mistakes
[Verse 2]
And to my grandparents- you are the best of us
You’re always giving way more than the rest of us
Sorry that this didn’t go as expected
Just know that you taught me the most and I cherished each day
Wish that we never had moved far away
I miss the time when you’d take me to school every day
I’d ride back with Papa
I’d stay after meetings were late
Could never repay you
I’m sorry that I barely called
I’m afraid to show you the real me
I’m worried that you’d be ashamed
Lost the integrity that you ingrained in me
Life kinda strangled me
I lost my way, know its too late
But if you hear me, you were the light to my path every day
You all created the best memories that I’ve ever had in my brain
Mikayla, my beautiful wife- I’m sorry I know that this comes as surprise
I told you I’d always be there through the night
But I didn’t know that I’d run out of time
Please do not cry, just go on with your life
You have always been the strongest inside
I know that we never really found perfect
But you’re more than perfect to me through my eyes
I know thats its hard but don’t cry that I’m gone
I’ve finally found peace in this life all along
Lily and Dean, go and follow your dreams
You can achieve anything that you want
Promise me that you will take care of mom
Dad’s getting older, he can’t do it all
Wish I could be there to watch you all grow
If you ever miss me then just play this… song