Composure by Chris Ramos Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Yo, yo, yo, yo
If I told you my story you'd probably laugh at me
I been pushed to the side more times than a bad habit
Since I was younger I couldn't bring myself up to speak
So I sat back and acted like the shit ain't bother me
But deep inside in my heart and my soul
I couldn't stand it, couldn't bear it man I felt so alone
I was a shy kid, all I wanted was to be seen
By somebody, anybody, that was my only dream
I know it sounds pathetic but put yourself in my shoes
Crying out for attention but no one notices you
And the only time they look for you is so they could vent
Then expect you to comfort them and console 'em and shit
But they would nеver notice deep down, I feel like I'm dying
All thе time that I spent in my room, all alone crying
Pick myself up, I gotta keep it together
If I don't weather the storm, who's gonna storm the Weather
[Chorus]
Sometimes it feels like I'm holding the whole world on my shoulders
And if I let it go then the whole world will be over
Everyone's counting on me to keep up this persona
But if I'm pushed any further I may lose my composure
[Verse 2]
Look
I been called a pushover so many days
I began to answer to the shit like it was my name
But understand, in my mind if I spoke I would change
The dynamics of the friendships I worked so hard to gain
So I'd avoid confrontation
For fear of the mayhem
I would cause if my jaws start obliterating
Backed up as shit
Like cum in a dick
The way that would spray out who wouldn't get hit
So I keep it inside and my heart starts racing
But to everyone else I just come off patient
In reality my soul's living in hell
Inside the cell of my mind, no one can ever find
Is it too late to change?
Am I just stuck in my ways?
Feel like I buried myself under a world of pain
I'm responsible for the feelings I'm holding below
I just hope I don't cause chaos if I bring them afloat
[Chorus]
Sometimes it feels like I'm holding the whole world on my shoulders
(Whole world on my shoulders)
And if I let it go then the whole world will be over
(Whole world will be over)
Everyone's counting on me to keep up this persona
(Keep up this persona)
But if I'm pushed any further I may lose my composure
(I may lose my composure)
[Bridge]
All the pain it's causing me
To keep inside my energy
Took me way too long to see
But it's time to face reality
All the people that I hurt
Understand that this ain't personal
Please accept my apology
But it's time for me to live for me
[Chorus]
Sometimes it feels like I'm holding the whole world on my shoulders
(Whole world on my shoulders)
And if I let it go then the whole world will be over
(Whole world will be over)
Everyone's counting on me to keep up this persona
(Keep up this persona)
But if I'm pushed any further I may lose my composure
(I may lose my composure, my composure, my composure)
[Chorus, Bridge]
Sometimes it feels like I'm
All the pain it's causing me
Holding the whole world on my shoulders
To keep inside my energy
(I may lose my composure, my composure, my composure)
And if I let it go then the
Took me way too long to see
Whole world will be over
But it's time to face reality
(I may lose my composure, my composure, my composure)
Everyone's counting on me
All the people that I hurt
To keep up this persona
Understand that this ain't personal
(I may lose my composure, my composure, my composure)
But if I'm pushed any further
Please accept my apology
I may lose my composure
But it's time for me to live for me
Yo, yo, yo, yo
If I told you my story you'd probably laugh at me
I been pushed to the side more times than a bad habit
Since I was younger I couldn't bring myself up to speak
So I sat back and acted like the shit ain't bother me
But deep inside in my heart and my soul
I couldn't stand it, couldn't bear it man I felt so alone
I was a shy kid, all I wanted was to be seen
By somebody, anybody, that was my only dream
I know it sounds pathetic but put yourself in my shoes
Crying out for attention but no one notices you
And the only time they look for you is so they could vent
Then expect you to comfort them and console 'em and shit
But they would nеver notice deep down, I feel like I'm dying
All thе time that I spent in my room, all alone crying
Pick myself up, I gotta keep it together
If I don't weather the storm, who's gonna storm the Weather
[Chorus]
Sometimes it feels like I'm holding the whole world on my shoulders
And if I let it go then the whole world will be over
Everyone's counting on me to keep up this persona
But if I'm pushed any further I may lose my composure
[Verse 2]
Look
I been called a pushover so many days
I began to answer to the shit like it was my name
But understand, in my mind if I spoke I would change
The dynamics of the friendships I worked so hard to gain
So I'd avoid confrontation
For fear of the mayhem
I would cause if my jaws start obliterating
Backed up as shit
Like cum in a dick
The way that would spray out who wouldn't get hit
So I keep it inside and my heart starts racing
But to everyone else I just come off patient
In reality my soul's living in hell
Inside the cell of my mind, no one can ever find
Is it too late to change?
Am I just stuck in my ways?
Feel like I buried myself under a world of pain
I'm responsible for the feelings I'm holding below
I just hope I don't cause chaos if I bring them afloat
[Chorus]
Sometimes it feels like I'm holding the whole world on my shoulders
(Whole world on my shoulders)
And if I let it go then the whole world will be over
(Whole world will be over)
Everyone's counting on me to keep up this persona
(Keep up this persona)
But if I'm pushed any further I may lose my composure
(I may lose my composure)
[Bridge]
All the pain it's causing me
To keep inside my energy
Took me way too long to see
But it's time to face reality
All the people that I hurt
Understand that this ain't personal
Please accept my apology
But it's time for me to live for me
[Chorus]
Sometimes it feels like I'm holding the whole world on my shoulders
(Whole world on my shoulders)
And if I let it go then the whole world will be over
(Whole world will be over)
Everyone's counting on me to keep up this persona
(Keep up this persona)
But if I'm pushed any further I may lose my composure
(I may lose my composure, my composure, my composure)
[Chorus, Bridge]
Sometimes it feels like I'm
All the pain it's causing me
Holding the whole world on my shoulders
To keep inside my energy
(I may lose my composure, my composure, my composure)
And if I let it go then the
Took me way too long to see
Whole world will be over
But it's time to face reality
(I may lose my composure, my composure, my composure)
Everyone's counting on me
All the people that I hurt
To keep up this persona
Understand that this ain't personal
(I may lose my composure, my composure, my composure)
But if I'm pushed any further
Please accept my apology
I may lose my composure
But it's time for me to live for me