Not OK by Chaz Cardigan Lyrics

[Verse 1]
18 with a hammer at my senior prom
Ripping couches in the basement of a country club
That was my first panic attack
I knew couldn't get my youth all back
I got a temper from my old man, used to black out
Then I started drinking liquor 'til my cash ran down
I was living in the house with the band
Couldn't pay rent, couldn't keep a job, didn't have a plan

[Pre-Chorus]
Some days, man, I've got it all together
Most days though I'm just trying to get better

[Chorus]
Everybody's got that something
We can't fix with love or money
Even when it pulls me under
Get so high that it just seems funny
How many times can I fake it
Before it breaks me, I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
[Verse 2]
23 and skipping obligations
For some fake crush when I start to lose my patience
I get stoned on going too fast
And what a rush when we finally crash
I know a little bit more now than I used to
But at the cost I payed, I'm pretty sure I got screwed
I spent a few nights sleeping in my car
Took it too far a couple times getting kicked out of the bar
Some days, man I've got it all together
Most days though I'm just trying to get better

[Chorus]
Everybody's got that something
We can't fix with love or money
Even when it pulls me under
Get so high that it just seems funny
How many times can I fake it
Before it breaks me, I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not o-
Okay!
Okay!
Okay!
Okay!
[Bridge]
Maybe when 50 I'll figure it out
Get my shit put together in a nice clean house
Maybe that's a pipe dream

[Chorus]
Everybody's got that something we can't fix with love or money
Even when it pulls me under
Get so high that it just seems funny
How many times can I fake it
Before it breaks me, I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Everyone feels like they're crazy
Why can't I say it? I'm not okay
I'm not okay!
I'm not okay