2nd Thoughts by Catfromthetrash. Lyrics

I'm drowning myself in potions
So numb, I can't feel pain
Got a bottle full of happy thoughts
And poured it down the drain
It's not the same
When those who love you
Have to watch you go insane
I'm happy, I tell myself
As if everything's okay

Self hate is a habit
A reflex when I panic
Drinking antidote
My soul is crying heavily
I'm back in the same position
I left it at
Stepping back
Did not fix a thing
Costing me, my everything
I should've texted back
I love you
More than you love me
Been putting you above me
All in for us to be something
That was it, was all or nothing
I'm broken
Choking on words
I meant to say
But never heard
I'm determined to find my ending
They tell me don't be discouraged
Less of me wants to live
I'm feeling drowsy
Oh. my heart strings
I fell in love with a cardiograph
She felt my heart beat
She knows when I feel alive
And when I'm feeling dead inside
I change my mind
But it's too late
For by the time I did
I've pried open

Alone again
So sad
I guess I'm broken
So sad