Killin Me by CalenRaps Lyrics
[Verse]
Don't ask me how I feel, I feel however the drugs feel
I just get high until it feels like we in love still
But then I notice, I'm alone and this a buzzkill
And I don't trust myself 'cause nobody that I trust will
I still remember when we first met
You told me you might be the girl that leave me hurt next
We laughed about it
But what's so wild about your smile is I ain't seen it in a while and now I can't laugh without it
You were the only bright spot on all my dark days
Lost my rock, now I reside in a hard place
Ride or die it's all fake
I realised that you lost faith
Way before you called
Like I'm decided the park ways
I should have saw the signs
I hope that nigga that you dating know you always mine
And what we have was amazing, just at an awful time
Don't tell me that you moved on, if I ain't off your mind
And time heals wounds, I hope it heals mine soon
'Cause everyday doing nothing what I feel like doing
Trapped inside of a room, can't nobody get to 'em
Scared to meeting new people and fearing how they gon' do 'em
Girl I'm uninterested, in pretending like we're friends and shit
We used to be different, the difference is all of our differences
I know you sick of my binging and my addictedness
Just thought you be more empathetic towards my emptiness
Girl I miss you like I miss my granny
Shit, I don't know who I miss more
How come everything I take for granted
Is everything that I wish for
Maybe I'll never understand it
Maybe I could've did more
All that shit that's killin' me
Give me that feeling that I live for
You take my name of another nigga that loved you fresh out the bed
You missed my calls, I text his dad and you really left them on read, the bloodshead
I forgave you, but can't forget
I don't hate you, I hate the stress
I just hate the way that you [dead?]
And I hate to make you upset
But in case we just can't connect
And I'm changing, just has you claiming
Ain’t no shame, I change for the best
All that shit that's killin' me
Give me that feeling that I live for
Don't ask me how I feel, I feel however the drugs feel
I just get high until it feels like we in love still
But then I notice, I'm alone and this a buzzkill
And I don't trust myself 'cause nobody that I trust will
I still remember when we first met
You told me you might be the girl that leave me hurt next
We laughed about it
But what's so wild about your smile is I ain't seen it in a while and now I can't laugh without it
You were the only bright spot on all my dark days
Lost my rock, now I reside in a hard place
Ride or die it's all fake
I realised that you lost faith
Way before you called
Like I'm decided the park ways
I should have saw the signs
I hope that nigga that you dating know you always mine
And what we have was amazing, just at an awful time
Don't tell me that you moved on, if I ain't off your mind
And time heals wounds, I hope it heals mine soon
'Cause everyday doing nothing what I feel like doing
Trapped inside of a room, can't nobody get to 'em
Scared to meeting new people and fearing how they gon' do 'em
Girl I'm uninterested, in pretending like we're friends and shit
We used to be different, the difference is all of our differences
I know you sick of my binging and my addictedness
Just thought you be more empathetic towards my emptiness
Girl I miss you like I miss my granny
Shit, I don't know who I miss more
How come everything I take for granted
Is everything that I wish for
Maybe I'll never understand it
Maybe I could've did more
All that shit that's killin' me
Give me that feeling that I live for
You take my name of another nigga that loved you fresh out the bed
You missed my calls, I text his dad and you really left them on read, the bloodshead
I forgave you, but can't forget
I don't hate you, I hate the stress
I just hate the way that you [dead?]
And I hate to make you upset
But in case we just can't connect
And I'm changing, just has you claiming
Ain’t no shame, I change for the best
All that shit that's killin' me
Give me that feeling that I live for