Finding My Purpose by CalenRaps Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Yeah, scared of love, scared of lies
Thought we were the perfect pair but apprently you paralyzed
You used to bare it all, and now you barley care to try
And rarely let me in your territory cos you terrified
I swear to god, nothing compares to how we share the vibe
Baby we was parallel these other girls are paracites
I saw your parents and I asked em what your spirits like
They said your smile ain't been near as bright and neither has mine
I used to think things get easy with time
But now I see they just get easy at times
Like when im drinking not thinking about how tonight you gon be sleep' in my arms
My demons never rally leave fo' that long
[Chorus 1]
You know I'm strivin' for perfect, but life is a circus
I'm grinding I'm working, while finding my purpose
And reasons why I think I'm not worthless
And sometimes I bite off more than I can chew
Probably should've been prioritising you
[Verse 2]
Say I love you with my mouth
But my actions just ain't been as loud
Thought I could blow up while also holding you down
I'm lonley even when I've got hoes and homies around
Searching for those moments we found, it never appeared
If I never was clear, I ain't wanna seperate for 70 years
Didn't think we'd ever be here, but here we are
[Verse 3]
Had this fear of falling in love since I seen the marriage of my parents fail
Life is only fair on a fairest wheel or in a fairytales
Marijuana all in my fingernails, I ain't fairin' well
Fake smile on my face, afraid I ain't gon' wear it well from fairy rides to farewells
Sad because I'm sober put your heart inside a cast I'm so bad as a cassonova
All I ask is you don't smash all these rappers I'm passing over
Goin' backwards on my path to closure
No GPS, the more I need you, you need me less
Wish I could re-live life, wish I could relieve stress
I get the same results, because I repeat steps
I just can't resist, it's like I need regrets
[Chorus 2]
I look fine on my surface, but I'm honestly nervous
I'm searching and searching, but won't find my purpose
And reasons why I think I'm not worhtless
And sometimes I bite off more than I can chew
Didn't know It was demoralizing you
Yeah, scared of love, scared of lies
Thought we were the perfect pair but apprently you paralyzed
You used to bare it all, and now you barley care to try
And rarely let me in your territory cos you terrified
I swear to god, nothing compares to how we share the vibe
Baby we was parallel these other girls are paracites
I saw your parents and I asked em what your spirits like
They said your smile ain't been near as bright and neither has mine
I used to think things get easy with time
But now I see they just get easy at times
Like when im drinking not thinking about how tonight you gon be sleep' in my arms
My demons never rally leave fo' that long
[Chorus 1]
You know I'm strivin' for perfect, but life is a circus
I'm grinding I'm working, while finding my purpose
And reasons why I think I'm not worthless
And sometimes I bite off more than I can chew
Probably should've been prioritising you
[Verse 2]
Say I love you with my mouth
But my actions just ain't been as loud
Thought I could blow up while also holding you down
I'm lonley even when I've got hoes and homies around
Searching for those moments we found, it never appeared
If I never was clear, I ain't wanna seperate for 70 years
Didn't think we'd ever be here, but here we are
[Verse 3]
Had this fear of falling in love since I seen the marriage of my parents fail
Life is only fair on a fairest wheel or in a fairytales
Marijuana all in my fingernails, I ain't fairin' well
Fake smile on my face, afraid I ain't gon' wear it well from fairy rides to farewells
Sad because I'm sober put your heart inside a cast I'm so bad as a cassonova
All I ask is you don't smash all these rappers I'm passing over
Goin' backwards on my path to closure
No GPS, the more I need you, you need me less
Wish I could re-live life, wish I could relieve stress
I get the same results, because I repeat steps
I just can't resist, it's like I need regrets
[Chorus 2]
I look fine on my surface, but I'm honestly nervous
I'm searching and searching, but won't find my purpose
And reasons why I think I'm not worhtless
And sometimes I bite off more than I can chew
Didn't know It was demoralizing you