Tried to find happiness but i failed by CHIMERIX Lyrics

[Verse 1]
Do you understand that I am in need of some love?
Can you hold my hand and keep me with you for some time?
I don't wanna lay on bed, it's time for me to come up and stop crying all day
I lost all my friends, I wish they didn't pretend
I still remember all the times when we would always spend
And when I tried to find 'em again, they all decided to end
They all decided to end

[Chorus]
I need to find myself some happiness, but every time I tried I failed so hard
I need to find myself somе happiness, but every timе I tried I failed so hard

[Post-Chorus]
Ooh-aah, oh-oh-aah, oh-aah-aah-aah
Ooh-aah, oh-oh-aah, oh-aah-aah-aah

[Verse 2]
How many times did I cry today?
How many times did I try to kill myself?
It's so uncountable
No one will understand all the pain
No one will understand all the miseries 'cause it's a mountain of
Mood swings and anger issues, so many used up tissues
Scars on my body, can't see 'em, 'cause I wanna make sure it don't continue
Losing my mind 'cause of some problems, looking like I cannot live without em
Feeling like I should be taking some toxins, 'cause it looks like that's the only option
[Chorus]
I need to find myself some happiness, but every time I tried I failed so hard
I need to find myself some happiness, but every time I tried I failed so hard

[Post-Chorus]
Ooh-aah, oh-oh-aah, oh-aah-aah-aah
Ooh-aah, oh-oh-aah, oh-aah-aah-aah