DAMNATION by CHAVER Lyrics

I am stuck in my routine
Tied up with chains I can not break
Each time the same cycle, same process, same scheme
It is ahead and I can not overtake
My sight is blurred by a bittersweet haze
Of wishes, presumptions, boast and deceit
I lied to myself when I said I'll change my ways
Another attempt, another defeat
And once again it stays the same
Once again I tried in vain
A permanent repeat of fails
Once again I feel ashamed of myself
Self-inflected misery
Narcissistic fuck! emotionally numb!
Concealing this mental injury
Brazen imposter! conceited scum!
An inmate in this prison of lies
Constantly mistaken with independency
Abusing trust, sucking out live
All destructive tendencies
Because I lurch at the edge of an abyss
And I’m already heading down