Curtains by Being Spike Lyrics
“This is who I'm when the curtains close”
I keep on losing faith in everything the system makes
I might have lost myself in all these stories I narrate
My thoughts are like a plague and lately I don't need no help
It's complicated now it's time for me to flip the page
I tell myself I'm Brave yet I'm never really doing much
Everything is great not until you hear the other side
Holding on to pain take my meds I pray I never die
Looking for a day when these memories I leave behind
Now is not the time and this topic I don't really like
Had my ups and downs like the time I learnt to ride a bike
Talking to myself that's a habit I can't really hide
Even as I write deep inside I lost a better man
Hook
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go...
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close
I'm living through all of this, with passion I’m writing this
I'm working on who I'm, embracing what I'll be
My problem is not the game, but people that make the rules
I'm making a better name, for people with better views
So, tell me, tell me how do yall feel do I look ready am I dressed well
Will I get credit for my hard work will I find meaning will I find peace
Will I write more when I feel less, put my high hopes in the right place
Take me right back to my old days where I did more and I spoke less
Show me what's right, show me what changed put the right words on the front page
Should I think more when I sleep less, working night shift on the next day
While I’m still up playing Heartbeat, with a playlist for the next day
When the curtains close I'll be right here doing what it takes in my own way
Yeah
Hook
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go...
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go...
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close
I'm working on myself, a story that I tell
I'm holding to one prayer, That everything goes well
My waiting for my time, I stand on that grey line
My options are still clear I hope that I'm still here
[Yeah]
Hook
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close
I keep on losing faith in everything the system makes
I might have lost myself in all these stories I narrate
My thoughts are like a plague and lately I don't need no help
It's complicated now it's time for me to flip the page
I tell myself I'm Brave yet I'm never really doing much
Everything is great not until you hear the other side
Holding on to pain take my meds I pray I never die
Looking for a day when these memories I leave behind
Now is not the time and this topic I don't really like
Had my ups and downs like the time I learnt to ride a bike
Talking to myself that's a habit I can't really hide
Even as I write deep inside I lost a better man
Hook
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go...
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close
I'm living through all of this, with passion I’m writing this
I'm working on who I'm, embracing what I'll be
My problem is not the game, but people that make the rules
I'm making a better name, for people with better views
So, tell me, tell me how do yall feel do I look ready am I dressed well
Will I get credit for my hard work will I find meaning will I find peace
Will I write more when I feel less, put my high hopes in the right place
Take me right back to my old days where I did more and I spoke less
Show me what's right, show me what changed put the right words on the front page
Should I think more when I sleep less, working night shift on the next day
While I’m still up playing Heartbeat, with a playlist for the next day
When the curtains close I'll be right here doing what it takes in my own way
Yeah
Hook
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go...
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go...
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close
I'm working on myself, a story that I tell
I'm holding to one prayer, That everything goes well
My waiting for my time, I stand on that grey line
My options are still clear I hope that I'm still here
[Yeah]
Hook
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close
I'm here on my own
I don't know where to go
Looking right yet feeling wrong
This is who I'm when the curtains close