2015 by August Henry Lyrics

Always craving closeness to people I hardly know
Maybe it's sickness, maybe I'm damaged
Maybe sometimes it's just how it goes
I'm collecting passing clues as to what you used to be like
And what led to the way that you spent most nights of my life

I just want to be closer
But something stands in the way
Maybe it's better now that you're sober
But it still kills me everyday
Maybe my prayers will be answered
Not have the chance to get to know you
Bеfore one of us is gone
I know it sounds stupid but I can't fucking do this
I don't know whеre my heart belongs

You can't blame me for being angry when I can only cry
When I'm angry, when I'm tired, or the least bit chemically inclined
You're a myth in my head
I become you as I get older
Speak of you in past tense, you're still here
But I can feel you getting colder
I just want to be closer
But something stands in my way
Maybe it's better now that you're sober
But it still kills me everyday
Maybe my prayers will be answered
Not have the chance to get to know you
Before one of us is gone
I know it sounds stupid but I can't fucking do this
I don't know where my heart belongs

Maybe my prayers will be answered
Not have the chance to get to know you
Before one of us is gone