Bitter Pill by Apate Lyrics

My whole life, I’ve wished I could stand up for myself
I try so hard to please everyone
Nothing’s ever good enough
So fuck my attempts at pleasing anyone
At pleasing anyone, what!?

Always been second best
Trapped to suffer
Left with this loneliness
Life's just a parasite, leeching all I have inside
Leaving me to die, hanging from a rope made of lies
I hope death waits no longer

Break through the exterior
I don't feel any clearer
This sickening feeling, it won't seem to fade
Break through the exterior
I don't feel any clearer
This sickening feeling, it won't seem to fade

Because it makes me choke until I spit it out 
like a motherfucking
Blegh
So what do you want from me?
I can't provide it, obviously

Fuck you
And all you want me to be
I've become a product of the world that is in front of me
Dried up and left for dead
With these memories stuck in my head

Life’s a fucking joke
Hypocritical, narcissistic joke
Hypocritical, narcissistic joke