Raisin in the Sun by Anti-Lilly Lyrics
[Chorus]
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find some peace of mind
[Verse 1]
Hey! They tell me, "You happy now!"
And one day I won't cry, but I can't help it
Thinkin' about those days I hugged your flesh and I feel selfish
You was my lover and then my friend
Became my angel in the end
And I could act like I'm good but you never like when niggas pretend
I miss your soul, ho
Chuggin' down this wine to ease my mind
Watchin' these videos in my phone like you was on it all the time
That's why we gravitated
Even on the days I made you agitated
You text my phone like, "Fix it now before I make you hate it"
I understand, all of this was part of God's plan
They say life a fucking gamble, and all you did was played your hand
March 26th 2020 gave me aches I never knew
Sick as hell, sent you through Hell but you still was a better you
Excuse my tears, I'm just wishing I could get it all back
Treat you better without the bullshit and help you relax
Right now it's hard to write without seeing your name, so here it goes
I love you through infinity, I'm hoping you know
I can't find the words
Yeah
[Chorus]
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find some peace of mind
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find some peace of mind
[Verse 2]
Journeying into outer space, I just need an escape
Spirited away
Numbing my body every day
I pray like I don't know another way
What's the value of another day if you can't see what's comin'?
Some of my niggas start runnin', but never will cross my mind
Man, I can't lose another
Memory's huntin' in the most beautiful way
Holdin' our photos just so I don't forget your face
Love is so selfish
If I could just take the place, I'd maybe give you another day
Promise, I would
Tell my brother that I'm sharing his pain
One and the same
I lost too many to name
She can never be the same, fuck
But look Hope, this one is for you
For the short time that I knew you, I just want to thank you
Remember you checkin' on me when I should've been checkin' on you
Influence my brother for the better
[?] got the news
I know nobody here forever
I wonder how we would move if we knew the time in a day
My youth moving further away
Movin' closer to my grave
I can't get deviled by my brain
When my time comes, shit, I just hope that I did everything that I should
Tell me reflection every day that it's gon' be all good
I hope I'm right though
Shit, I hope I'm right
[Chorus]
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find some peace of mind
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find some peace of mind
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find-
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find some peace of mind
[Verse 1]
Hey! They tell me, "You happy now!"
And one day I won't cry, but I can't help it
Thinkin' about those days I hugged your flesh and I feel selfish
You was my lover and then my friend
Became my angel in the end
And I could act like I'm good but you never like when niggas pretend
I miss your soul, ho
Chuggin' down this wine to ease my mind
Watchin' these videos in my phone like you was on it all the time
That's why we gravitated
Even on the days I made you agitated
You text my phone like, "Fix it now before I make you hate it"
I understand, all of this was part of God's plan
They say life a fucking gamble, and all you did was played your hand
March 26th 2020 gave me aches I never knew
Sick as hell, sent you through Hell but you still was a better you
Excuse my tears, I'm just wishing I could get it all back
Treat you better without the bullshit and help you relax
Right now it's hard to write without seeing your name, so here it goes
I love you through infinity, I'm hoping you know
I can't find the words
Yeah
[Chorus]
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find some peace of mind
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find some peace of mind
[Verse 2]
Journeying into outer space, I just need an escape
Spirited away
Numbing my body every day
I pray like I don't know another way
What's the value of another day if you can't see what's comin'?
Some of my niggas start runnin', but never will cross my mind
Man, I can't lose another
Memory's huntin' in the most beautiful way
Holdin' our photos just so I don't forget your face
Love is so selfish
If I could just take the place, I'd maybe give you another day
Promise, I would
Tell my brother that I'm sharing his pain
One and the same
I lost too many to name
She can never be the same, fuck
But look Hope, this one is for you
For the short time that I knew you, I just want to thank you
Remember you checkin' on me when I should've been checkin' on you
Influence my brother for the better
[?] got the news
I know nobody here forever
I wonder how we would move if we knew the time in a day
My youth moving further away
Movin' closer to my grave
I can't get deviled by my brain
When my time comes, shit, I just hope that I did everything that I should
Tell me reflection every day that it's gon' be all good
I hope I'm right though
Shit, I hope I'm right
[Chorus]
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find some peace of mind
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find some peace of mind
I'm trying to find the words to say
And I'm looking to find-