Terms by AQUAMACHINE Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Put the pistol to your head then move it down to your eardrum
Load emotions in the clip then shoot so you can hear em
Sometimes I can have a short fuse, like some dynamite
Or like those land mines that’ll blow when you come near em
I wanna be up next, next up: another rapper feeling blessed up
But everyday getting my stress up, I’ve never been one for dress up
But I feel like I’m wearing a mask, nobody knows how I’m feeling cause they never ask
I’ve always had issues with focus, I never could stay on task
And it really comes through in my music
I don’t ever stick to a topic
Or maybe I stick to one too much, I don’t know, but I need to stop it
Being so hard on myself, like why I am I using a fast flow, when the beat slow
What does he know? But he, is me, do you see? No
See I am my own worst enemy, all the self doubt that I’ll never be somebody
Who’s got it all figured out, somebody people would give a shout when they need me
I just want someone to need me
And probably that sounded greedy
But my life is a TV show
And nobody’s watching the TV
[Chorus]
Tryna come to terms with the state of my being
Failure up ahead is all that I’m seeing
And I can’t even tell you how I feel
Cause I don’t know if it’s real
[Verse 2]
I just wanna be somebody’s first priority
I’m like terms and conditions, the way that they be ignoring me
Inside I’m a mess, but I make myself look orderly
Might be clingy that’s cause I don’t want no one to get bored of me
On the borderline of breakin down
My guard was up, I take it down
Gotta be real can’t fake it now
Mess up in the making now
I’m hating how I’m losing my connection to spiritual
Only talk to God when I’m needing a miracle
Furthermore I’ve been strugglin, so confused at what love is
When do I know if it’s love? When my heart starts pumpin?
Can I love someone if I ain’t even been with her?
Or am I just in love with my mental picture
I got so many questions, I’m in need of the answers
My emotions are growin inside of me like a cancer
I don’t take any chances, they could lead to my doom
So I’m sitting alone with my thoughts in my room
[Chorus]
Tryna come to terms with the state of my being
Failure up ahead is all that I’m seeing
And I can’t even tell you how I feel
Cause I don’t know if it’s real
Put the pistol to your head then move it down to your eardrum
Load emotions in the clip then shoot so you can hear em
Sometimes I can have a short fuse, like some dynamite
Or like those land mines that’ll blow when you come near em
I wanna be up next, next up: another rapper feeling blessed up
But everyday getting my stress up, I’ve never been one for dress up
But I feel like I’m wearing a mask, nobody knows how I’m feeling cause they never ask
I’ve always had issues with focus, I never could stay on task
And it really comes through in my music
I don’t ever stick to a topic
Or maybe I stick to one too much, I don’t know, but I need to stop it
Being so hard on myself, like why I am I using a fast flow, when the beat slow
What does he know? But he, is me, do you see? No
See I am my own worst enemy, all the self doubt that I’ll never be somebody
Who’s got it all figured out, somebody people would give a shout when they need me
I just want someone to need me
And probably that sounded greedy
But my life is a TV show
And nobody’s watching the TV
[Chorus]
Tryna come to terms with the state of my being
Failure up ahead is all that I’m seeing
And I can’t even tell you how I feel
Cause I don’t know if it’s real
[Verse 2]
I just wanna be somebody’s first priority
I’m like terms and conditions, the way that they be ignoring me
Inside I’m a mess, but I make myself look orderly
Might be clingy that’s cause I don’t want no one to get bored of me
On the borderline of breakin down
My guard was up, I take it down
Gotta be real can’t fake it now
Mess up in the making now
I’m hating how I’m losing my connection to spiritual
Only talk to God when I’m needing a miracle
Furthermore I’ve been strugglin, so confused at what love is
When do I know if it’s love? When my heart starts pumpin?
Can I love someone if I ain’t even been with her?
Or am I just in love with my mental picture
I got so many questions, I’m in need of the answers
My emotions are growin inside of me like a cancer
I don’t take any chances, they could lead to my doom
So I’m sitting alone with my thoughts in my room
[Chorus]
Tryna come to terms with the state of my being
Failure up ahead is all that I’m seeing
And I can’t even tell you how I feel
Cause I don’t know if it’s real