Never Lacking by ALXCC Lyrics
(Verse 1)
I’ve had it with this
Time to deal with it
I’m sick of all this
And how it effects me
I can't take this negativity
My mind is constantly screaming
It’s time to go make a change
It’s time to go and turn the page
It’s time to start a new era of me
Go where the universe leads me, but
After everything that ever happened to me
I just yearn for peace
I’m not even in fibbing
I’m sick of this shit I’ve been dealing with
God knows I’ve had it
All the talk that I’ve had with him
Praying to him to take away the pain
Or take me up with him
God knows I’m meant for something
Even in this time and climate
It’s time to face the music
Yeah
(Hook)
Let’s face it
People always want something
They just be fronting
My ass I’ve been busting
You have no idea what the fuck I’ve been through
It’s why I’m not so easily trusting
In case my demons come at me
I’m always ready
Arms both steady
Ready to defend me
I keep both my eyes open when I sleep
That’s why I’ll never be caught lacking
(Verse 2)
Reality speaking
I can’t always think everyone is a malevolent
In the matters of love
I’ve come to realize in myself
I’ve got shit that’s just unresolved
This makes it all hard cause
I don’t want to hurt the one that I love
She’s shown me things, she makes me evolve
For that I look deep into myself
To figure this out, fuck
The last thing I want, is to mess all this up
Cause I realize that the love that I got
Is love that I’ve needed, for way too long
But dammit these demons are loud
And they just won’t stop
With all the things that they say, they scare me a lot
With these demons around, I refused to be caught lacking, even once
If I do, then I may lose everything I’ve got
(Hook)
Let’s face it
People always want something
They just be fronting
My ass I’ve been busting
You have no idea what the fuck I’ve been through
It’s why I’m not so easily trusting
In case my demons come at me
I’m always ready
Arms both steady
Ready to defend me
I keep both my eyes open when I sleep
That’s why I’ll never be caught lacking
(Verse 3)
For the record
I never wanted to be like this
I’ve just been so hurt and I fucking hate it
Insecure in places I never knew I was insecure
I refuse to be a prisoner of my own thoughts
It’s why I do what I do now
I’m sorry for the fact, it’s hard for me to trust
Anyone that’s around (Damn)
I try my hardest
But on the ground which I stand
Has been poisoned with doubt
I’ve been on my own for so long now
It’s easy for me to kick people out
It’s even harder to get in
So many things stop them from getting in
How can I love when I’m like this
This is why I kept love away as long as I did
A lot of this comes from not wanting to hurt
The way I did, but I need to remind myself
Not every person has the same intent
I need to get that out of my head
Layers have been peeling
I’ve been my worst energy
I’m starting to see it’s okay to be me
That’s something I desperately needed
Cause it’s been hard
Until this one person honestly, yeah
(Hook)
Let’s face it
People always want something
They just be fronting
My ass I’ve been busting
You have no idea what the fuck I’ve been through
It’s why I’m not so easily trusting
In case my demons come at me
I’m always ready
Arms both steady
Ready to defend me
I keep both my eyes open when I sleep
That’s why I’ll never be caught lacking
I’ve had it with this
Time to deal with it
I’m sick of all this
And how it effects me
I can't take this negativity
My mind is constantly screaming
It’s time to go make a change
It’s time to go and turn the page
It’s time to start a new era of me
Go where the universe leads me, but
After everything that ever happened to me
I just yearn for peace
I’m not even in fibbing
I’m sick of this shit I’ve been dealing with
God knows I’ve had it
All the talk that I’ve had with him
Praying to him to take away the pain
Or take me up with him
God knows I’m meant for something
Even in this time and climate
It’s time to face the music
Yeah
(Hook)
Let’s face it
People always want something
They just be fronting
My ass I’ve been busting
You have no idea what the fuck I’ve been through
It’s why I’m not so easily trusting
In case my demons come at me
I’m always ready
Arms both steady
Ready to defend me
I keep both my eyes open when I sleep
That’s why I’ll never be caught lacking
(Verse 2)
Reality speaking
I can’t always think everyone is a malevolent
In the matters of love
I’ve come to realize in myself
I’ve got shit that’s just unresolved
This makes it all hard cause
I don’t want to hurt the one that I love
She’s shown me things, she makes me evolve
For that I look deep into myself
To figure this out, fuck
The last thing I want, is to mess all this up
Cause I realize that the love that I got
Is love that I’ve needed, for way too long
But dammit these demons are loud
And they just won’t stop
With all the things that they say, they scare me a lot
With these demons around, I refused to be caught lacking, even once
If I do, then I may lose everything I’ve got
(Hook)
Let’s face it
People always want something
They just be fronting
My ass I’ve been busting
You have no idea what the fuck I’ve been through
It’s why I’m not so easily trusting
In case my demons come at me
I’m always ready
Arms both steady
Ready to defend me
I keep both my eyes open when I sleep
That’s why I’ll never be caught lacking
(Verse 3)
For the record
I never wanted to be like this
I’ve just been so hurt and I fucking hate it
Insecure in places I never knew I was insecure
I refuse to be a prisoner of my own thoughts
It’s why I do what I do now
I’m sorry for the fact, it’s hard for me to trust
Anyone that’s around (Damn)
I try my hardest
But on the ground which I stand
Has been poisoned with doubt
I’ve been on my own for so long now
It’s easy for me to kick people out
It’s even harder to get in
So many things stop them from getting in
How can I love when I’m like this
This is why I kept love away as long as I did
A lot of this comes from not wanting to hurt
The way I did, but I need to remind myself
Not every person has the same intent
I need to get that out of my head
Layers have been peeling
I’ve been my worst energy
I’m starting to see it’s okay to be me
That’s something I desperately needed
Cause it’s been hard
Until this one person honestly, yeah
(Hook)
Let’s face it
People always want something
They just be fronting
My ass I’ve been busting
You have no idea what the fuck I’ve been through
It’s why I’m not so easily trusting
In case my demons come at me
I’m always ready
Arms both steady
Ready to defend me
I keep both my eyes open when I sleep
That’s why I’ll never be caught lacking