Ashes after the fire by @FernChalamet Lyrics

Never thought I’d be witness of my own death
But it’s nice to see it all in the eyes of others
Walking by
Through their lives
Without them knowing I’m there at all
This shit is kinda fun… but it kinda hurts

‘Cause my mom used to mourn me
Now she has a new kid and a new boyfriend
Friends told me there would be no one like me
But now they have found a few others

Guess I won’t be allowed to rest
Until I clean up my mess

‘Cause who’s gonna heal the scars
After I left an open wound
Who’s gonna relief their heart
After all I put them through
Who’s gonna stop the flashes
When it’s a little too much
Who’s gonna clean the ashes
After the fire I caused
‘Cause there are still ashes after the fire I caused
I must be here to mend my broken fences
People usually don’t give second chances
But my stupid pride is out
I’m a motherfucker twisting all this shit upside down
Mad at them for moving on, letting me go
I should be feeling guilty, instead I’m hurt
But I have no option but to…

Try to heal the scars
After I left an open wound
Trying to relief their hearts
After all I put them through
Trying to stop the flashes
When it’s a little too much
And I know I have to clean the ashes
After the fire I caused
‘Cause they’ve been living with the ashes after the fire
They’ve breathing in the ashes of the fire
‘Cause there’s still ashes after the fire I caused